Electric chemistry.  Playful energy.  Deep connection. Inspired living.

This summer I thought I met ‘my person’.

I respected and admired him – who he was, and choices he made. We shared values and a similar joy in life.  I loved how he loved his kids… and how he loved his own body.  (And oh heck yes, I loved his body too…The sex was off the charts.)

I loved being in love.

I love love!  Every nook and cranny of it. I love loving my clients, I love loving my kids, my friends…

and I love the feeling of having one special person to love.

But I suspect the the most exquisite part was the great intoxication of being authentically all I am, and finding someone on the other side saying “YES, I want just who you are” – and meeting in passion.

INTIMACY ECSTACY.

Then two weeks ago we ended it.  Ouch.

(Turns out our authentic selves did not quite match up after all.)

The details don’t matter.  We were both actualized (old?! 🤣) enough to know we had found the place we could not be wholly ourselves and still meet each other with love.

Since then, I have alternated between achingly remembering how good it was – and then feeling utterly depressed.

And I have come to realize one of the things I miss most is feeling that I could be ALL of me (naked and totally real), hear YES, and find passion.

So I have decided to have another Hot New Love Affair:

WITH ME.

Because it turns out after all these years I still have places in me that look to other(s) to make me whole.

I am still fed by my lover’s good opinion of me…  and how if he thought I was sexy, then I was.

So I turn again within, and look to find all of that right here.

Electric chemistry.  Playful energy.  Deep connection.  Inspired living.

Electric chemistry?

Hello toys, high quality lubricant, clever hands, and dirty, delightful daydreams… Hello beautiful body, and all the pleasure you feel…

Playful energy?

Hello childlike attitude – skipping when I go for my evening walk, welcoming my silly, inviting friends to play with me (and yes, actual games like red light/green light, and Uno…)

Deep connection?

Hello writing.… this… to you.  Meditating.  Driving up to my beloved mountain top and listening to the silence.

Inspired living?

Hello creativity, and the artistry within.  Hello new ways of being alive, and enjoying life!

I DANCE WITH MY OWN TWO FEET.

I MOVE, BREATHE AND AM IN ALL MY BEAUTY, STRENGTH AND WILDNESS

BY
MY
SELF.

I CAN STILL HAVE THAT GREAT LOVE AFFAIR

WITHIN.

(And next time I think, when I have the good fortune to fall in love with an other again, there will only be even more of that intoxicating LOVE.)

What do YOU say?

What might your next love affair look like??